My Choice!

Many people will not understand my view on being a single mother by choice and that is fine but I do ask you not to leave negative comments on my choice. I am in my mid 20's which I think is a wonderful age to start a family. I have had many boyfriends and a very few that I thought may be the right one for me but for one reason or another nothing has worked out. My father a good man when my mom married him and even when I was born but I was 3 when my mom went back to school and my dad started drinking. It just got worse and worse and I saw him break my moms heart so many times with the choices he was making. I don't ever want to live like that and I never want to bring a child into a life like that. I have a great job that allows me to be financially able to have my own house and even to and a couple children. I am very thankful for that. I have wanted children ever since I was a little girl, so that is no surprise for me. I didn't wake up one morning and feel like I need to have a baby, it has just been with me my whole life that I want a baby. The sperm bank that I have chosen is wonderful, they have a great staff and a good selection of donors, although it is terribly hard to come by a hispanic donor (there are only 2 available at this bank currently).
I did get pregnant in March 2010 only for me to loose that baby when I was 10 weeks pregnant. I am heartbroken about that but I trust that God does have a baby for me, it just wasn't the right time. My doctor does not want me to try again until June or July. Through this blog I will be tracking my cycles and just taking note of this journey.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

CD1 (April 29th 2010)

Well after spotting some yesterday, AF showed full force this afternoon. As much as I hate the inconvienance of AF, it is actually kindof exciting because I know this is one step closer to getting my BrownBear.

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